When I married, I was definitely a 75% sort of girl. If I were to be honest, it could have been even lower depending on the circumstance. By grading myself in percentages, I mean: I am grading myself on general life accomplishments and motivation.
If I made breakfast, I would make my coffee, eat my cereal, and not finish cleaning until noon. However, I think a lot of people might do that, so maybe this is a better example:
I would photograph, edit, create a few final edits, and then not post the photos on the internet for a week or two. You know, until there was an obvious deadline.
For quite a few reasons, this was killing me. Not only because I was dropping the ball with client expectations, but because it made my lovely husband start to get annoying.
“Rachel, did you post client photos yet?”
“Don’t you think you should post now?”
This would go on, like I said, for 1-2 weeks or until I realized that maybe, just maybe…posting wasn’t that hard.
However, I’ve definitely gotten better. I have gotten past the part of needing Randy to kick my butt constantly (although he still does frequently). This blog post is an example.
“Rachel, have you posted?”
“When do you think you are going to post?”
I swore that I would post today. And I think I’m doing well. It’s only 11.15pm. I have 45 minutes.
I’ve been doing so much better, though. In my life percentages. I’ve at least gotten to 80%, possibly even 85%. Unfortunately, Randy is learning that I sometimes react better when he thinks I’ll never do it. Like how I’m running now. I hate running, and I’m only running because he thinks I can’t. I know that sounds immature…but hey, it’s helping me get past that 85% mark. If I get past that…perhaps I can do anything. I mean, next year…I could possibly get to 100%. You know, next year…like how I think of tomorrow.